Me Before You

The last letter of the massive pile before I'd begin tackling the two dozen invitations Miranda received each day was addressed in the loopy, girly writing of a teenager, complete withi 's dotted with hearts and smiley faces next to happy thoughts. I planned to only skim it, but it wouldn't allow itself to be skimmed: it was too immediately sad and honest—it was bleeding and pleading and begging all over the page. The initial four-second period came and went and I was still reading.

Dear Miranda,

My name is Anita and I am seventeen years old and I am a senior at Barringer

H.S. in Newark, NJ. I am so ashamed of my body even though everyone tells me I'm not fat. I want to look like the models you have in your magazine. Every month I wait for Runway to come in the mail even though my mama says it's stupid to pay all my allowance for a fashion magazine. But she doesn't understand that I have a 1

dream, but you do, dontcha? It has been my dream since I was a little girl, but I don't think it's gonna happen. Why, you ask? My boobs are very flat and my behind is bigger than the ones your models have and this makes me very embarased. I ask myself if this is the way I wanna live my life and I answer NO!!! because I wanna change and I wanna look and feel better and so I'm asking for your help. I wanna make a positive change and look in the mirror and love my breasts and my behind because they look just like the ones in the best magazine on earth!!!

Miranda, I know you're a wonderful person and fashion editor and you could transform me into a new person, and trust me, I would be forever grateful. But if you can't make me a new person, maybe you can get me a really, really, really nice dress for special occasions? I don't ever have dates, but my mama says it's OK for girls to go out alone so I will. I have one old dress but its not a designer dress or anything you would show in 2

Runway. My favorite designers are Prada (#1), Versace (#2), John Paul Gotier (#3). I have many faves, but those are my first three I love. I do not own any of their clothes and I haven't even seen them in a store (I'm not sure if anywhere in Newark sells these designers, but if you know of one, please tell me so I can go look at them and see what they look like up close), but I've seen there clothes in Runway and I have to say that I really, really love them.