supercommpromisesOur Love is Madness
Mike thinks he's doing the right thing, as usual, but both he and El soon discover it's not that easy to break up with your soulmate. (Shameless smut, hate sex, makeup sex, multi-chapter, happy ending)
Chapter 1
"But, I mean, we can still be friends. I want to be friends. But I don't want to hold you back just because I'm not here."
El was staring at him, hearing the words but still unable to process anything. Across the table from her, Mike was sweating profusely, looking pained and nervous.
"You want… to be friends," she repeated dumbly.
"Um… yeah. Is that okay?" He licked his lips. "Like, I still want to hang out with you and the guys and Max and talk about life and school and stuff but…"
"But you don't want to date me anymore."
"Um, it's not that I don't want to, but I'll be so far away, El, it's not fair for me to hold you back. You might find someone better while I'm away and I wouldn't…" he swallowed, like the words hurt to say, "I wouldn't want to keep you from being happy. With someone else."
It was starting to really hit her, what he was saying, and anger filled her body.
"You want me to find someone else?!"
"Well, no, but—"
"But what, Mike? You're breaking up with me," she winced at the reality in the those words. "At least fucking tell me why!"
He turned red, looking around the diner nervously, hoping her outburst hadn't drawn attention. It was mostly deserted anyways but the waitress at the counter gave them a look. He gulped.
"I… I did, El. I told you, I'm going to MIT and that's a fourteen hour drive, I won't be home until Christmas, if I can afford a flight, and—"
"And you want to find someone else there," she accused, suddenly insecure. "You want someone closer."
His eyes widened in confusion and then worry as he shook his head.
"No, not at all! I don't want someone closer, or someone else. I don't want to replace you, El, you're my best friend," his eyes softened. "I promise."